2 Years Ago, I Left California for Wisconsin♥

I moved back to Wisconsin from California exactly 2 years ago today and I had no idea where my life was headed, I was ready to re-invent myself. 

If I would have looked through a glass ball and gazed at where I am now, I never would have believed it.

But I would never change a thing. I have more true, genuine peace & joy in my heart than I've ever had before. I love the people in my life, and the people I continue to meet.

I'm single and for once I am okay with being that.  This leaves room for the right guy instead of "Mister Right Now".  I am honestly excited that the opportunity of falling madly in love with someone new and wonderful and *healthy* for me in my future still lies before me. (Because that's the only kind of man I'll let in from this day forward). ♥

I may not be rich financially (yet..).. but I am rich with love from my family, and the friends I have met. Especially in the last year.

I'm about to move into a 2 story farmhouse. Just me! In the middle of the country. Shiny new bamboo floors not walked upon by my bare feet yet.  Two kitchens, sparkly breakfast at tiffany blue walls, and a hand-painted mural on the wall!  I'm about to share this place with people who want to eat my cupcake creations.  I'm ecstatic, proud, and scared to death! ♥ Story here.

(source of this art: betterforthechange)

So many people have their "backup". You know-the husband, the boyfriend, the second job perhaps?   I've got complete faith as my back-up.   Just like I had complete faith when I moved back home a few years ago.

I just think it's funny that two years ago I was making a huge leap, I was blinded by my next step.

Now I'm here again. ♥ I am so excited to meet my next two years. Not just my next two years of cupcakes..but the next two years of *my life*.

This is my vision of it all♥ It'd be great if it really happens this way:

I think I might try my best to paint my bedroom this way ♥

 

 when i believe this, he will find me and never let go♥

but I can't lie, seeing this laying on my couch would be a dream. (especially if it really were James Franco)!

 

 

dinner parties at my home with friends ☻

 

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somehow i want this to be me! sharing my cupcakes with ellen degeneres and nicki minaj. (I dream big).

 

 

 

Lucille Ball is my role model ♥

 

an amanda cupcake mobile ♥

(art by brian theis of madison, wi)

 

I will go on vacation♥

 

 I'll stay true to this woman♥

(the authentic me).

 

 

♥ this was a fortune I got a few months ago at a restaurant called Chef Chu's.  Sweet. 

I'm less like Martha Stewart and more like Lucille Ball....

Right now I am sitting at home with this awful flu thing
I feel better for a few hours, and then I am down and out in bed.

When I am sick it is good time to treasure silence that isn't "allowed" in a normal 9-5 day..or 40-60 hour work week.

You know your job isn't right for you when you wish you would get sick just so you could sleep in a day!
That's what I used to wish for..and it is sad that a lot of people find themselves wishing for the same thing.

Life shouldn't be about just sitting, hoping, and waiting for some time that you can steal away for yourself.
Especially if it means that time is spent sweating, then freezing, coughing, and drugging yourself up on Theraflu!

But what I did enjoy about my flu this time..
was watching I Love Lucy.

Dan gave me the first season on DVD for Valentine's Day because I adore Lucille Ball so much.
Because I had the flu I was able to lay down in a fluffy bed and watch her black and white picture shine throughout my dimlit bedroom.

I laughed so hard..
What ever happened to actresses like Lucille Ball?
Who didn't have to wear silicone breast implants, scandalize her world with a spontaneous sex tape....or be an heir to someone famous. She was famous because she had talent, and she was a true inspiration!

Once in his life, every man is entitled to  fall madly in love with a gorgeous redhead.

Her petite body was covered up with polka dots, aprons or robes.
But when she revealed her hourglass tiny dancer on stage, it was like watching a beautiful peacock display their feathers..for a fleeting moment!

With the magic of an action or a word, she just made people laugh.
I am sure she made people live longer.
She had this God - given gift to make people laugh, and she shared it with everyone.

And I am thinking that she may have even helped me heal today!
So cheers to you, Lucille Ball!
Cheers to things that make me laugh...
make me feel young..
silly...
brave enough to try anything...
and very aware that imperfection can be beautiful.

“I’m not funny. What I am is brave.”
“It’s a helluva start, being able to recognize what makes you happy.”





My friend Alicia dressed up as Ricky one year for Halloween..and me--as Lucy ♥