I want to call it the "7 year itch."
Because seven years ago my bags were packed..I was ready to go-to start a new life in California. I was 24 years old, and the world was my oyster. I "created" my life, and everything seemed like a dream.
Seven years before that my bags were packed..I was graduating high school and moving out of the house to start a new life in Green Bay, Wisconsin. I was so sweet and passionate about my dreams. I couldn't wait to see what it was like to be a grown up!
Now here I am, seven years later. I am 31 years old, and it seems that time has hit the hold button.
But my very motivated self is desperate to find an open door and go for it.
I am impatient, and I want things to start happening now! I want my dreams to come alive.
The ones I had when I was six. Or thirteen. Or eighteen-when I graduated from high school.
I keep talking to God, asking him what he wants for me. Every night that is my main question to him.
I know a lot of friends that are going through some kind of mid-life crisis right now too.
The majority of these people are women!
They are either facing a divorce, questioning their current "status" in life, asking what their purpose is, trying their hardest not to make impulse decisions.
And they are all turning 30..or 31.
But wait a minute? Doesn't the mid life crisis visit much later? Like when we are 45 or 50?
And isn't it a little less serious--like buying a trendy new car, botox, or wearing a scarf under our chin to lift our loose neck skin?
I just read Eat Pray Love..and watched the movie.
I noticed that Elizabeth Gilbert was 31 when she escaped to "find" what she didn't expect in Italy, India, and Bali.
What is it about being 31 that creates this mid-life crisis?
I don't recall my mom's generation ever saying that they experienced this desperation after exiting their twenties. It's like a desperation to be independent, successful, unconventional, or just to find pure freedom & happiness.
I don't have any real solution for this. So I guess it is more of a question.
What is going on with my generation that we have a mid-life crisis at 31? ♥
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
I hope that life is like this for me when I am older.
Holding my love's hand at Golden Spoon, trying to
decide between Peanut Butter Cup or Cake Batter flavor.
Can't get much better than that!
(caught this photo on my cell phone. hooray for spontaneous picture taking).